My Online Discovery

I have been so close to my netbook ever since I quit my job last December. One thing we do together is to look at pictures of men I don't know who look good. I don't settle on my desk and Google men, it does not work like that, I would just be led to doing so from reading articles, if I get interested in someone in particular, then I would look for more pictures to drool over with. One is Glenn Fabian. I stumbled upon his name and you would too if you type in "pinoy scandal" in YouTube. His video wasn't a scandal though. It was just a few-second video of him pointing the camera to himself and smiling but it got a lot of views. He looked good and I got intrigued so I looked for more of him using Google. I learned that he has this inactive Myspace page and fortunately his pictures are still accessible. I like his height, I think he is about 5'10" and sports a really nice body. Here are some of his pictures:

ONLINE LURKER

I know you have heard of this word before but let's ask our ever reliable Wikipedia for its definition.

In Internet culture, a lurker is a person who reads discussions on a message board, newsgroup, chatroom, file sharing or other interactive system, but rarely or never participates actively. Research indicates that "lurkers make up over 90% of online groups". Lack of trust represents one of the reasons explaining lurking behavior.

We were all lurkers once and may still be as long as we discover new things via surfing the net. I remember curious self lurking in lifeout.com. They have this chat feature you can access and you can lurk through different user webcams for as long as they allow you. I have also done this using camfrog and I find it cool that they really call uninvited users as lurkers. Actually I only have viewed women's cams in camfrog I would like to try watching men too I just don't know if it will be equally entertaining as girls performing. I'll let you know.

Play This Dirrrty Video Even When Your Boss is Watching

Two very clever Holland-based artists Lernert Engelberts and Sander Plug made this video which has the most "orgasmic scenes" that is safe for work. Find out why.

Elektrotechnique from Lernert & Sander on Vimeo.

Hold It Against Me Parody

I like seeing videos like these in YouTube because you don't see them on TV and you may never will. Here is a gay music video parody of Britney Spears' "Hold It Against Me" featuring porn star Roman Heart. It is a very catchy song, it has been in the no. 1 spot for several weeks now on this local music channel. I used to just see them in Vimeo, I am glad they are also uploading videos like this in YouTube though, of course, they have more clothing.

Age Does Not Matter, But My Preference Does

I just previously blogged about these two guys who I am in contact with. One's a power bottom and the other one's a daddy top. I mentioned that "dad" and I would meet this week, well we did just. So I have only seen him in the picture he sent me and on the computer via his webcam so I was really anxious and uncomfy on my way to meet him at a mall in Cavite. I do not know if I would really like to do it with him from the way he would look like in person, that he might be really be old-looking, or that he may act unnecessarily in public. I am very careful when I am with a person who knows this side of me in public. Meet-ups are not new to me though, I have had a little more than 25 now, but I still shiver if not overdo acting normal in public.

credits: travelpod.com through user dreyes

Then there I was near the elevator waiting for someone to appear who would look like him. He said that he just went inside the mall and would approach me soon as he sees me when he called me and asked what I was wearing. In situations like this, obviously I would settle in an area with less people, so I stood and stayed uncomfortably near a closed ice cream kiosk facing the escalator. I had to look like I am waiting for my barkada to come and pick me up so we could enter the movie house together. I give people quick glances, but I know when guys stare at me and there are a lot who did just that even those who are with their girl companions. I am not exaggerating nor being self absorbed but I looked great that afternoon, my shirt gave me a chunky built and an edgy look, I have good height, and great skin complexion.

At the upper floor, still a little far from my vision I saw this guy in black and wearing shorts who looked at me and hurried up to the escalation going down, before he disappeared from my vision, he gave small little wave which I think meant "hi, it's me, I'm coming down for you, wait". After a few seconds the same guy was coming down the escalator still hurrying up, rushed to approach me, and said "ang tagal ng byahe, nakakapagod" and I just gave him a smirk, then a meaningless smile. Yes, I was disappointed. My fantasies of a "daddy" flushed out in the toilet just like my piss in the mall restroom a while ago. His body clearly shows how old he is, I thought it would have some mass and a little tone. His loosing his hair, though his white hair is not visible, its is observable and it is starting from the top. He has diastema and I noticed it when he smiled, not that it is a bad thing, but it did not go well with his look, it made him looked a little more older. I was seeing an unmarried man with a small store just outside my elementary school where I used to buy cheap toys that my mom did not want me to spend for. He does look and act very manly, both of us does, but in a daddy-and-son-came-to-the-mall-to-buy-a-new-washing-machine-for-mommy kind of way. I know that he came all the way from Marikina just to meet me there, he must be looking forward to being satisfied, I cannot tell him to go back where he came from right there, I am not evil, so I just thought that I will just let lust, if there would be, take over later. I would say that everything that happened from there is because I am a courteous man and a man of my words.

credits: shuttercock.com

I returned home with him after an almost two-hour trip. I was glad that its already getting a little dark so that the people around would not see me with clairvoyance. We already had a little talk on our way back and I would say that he is really horny, he wants us to be seated together in a barely occupied bus, he wants to wrap his arms around me, and he so close to my ear, I was feeling absolutely horrible. I just wanted the day to end, in fact I already asking him to leave early in the morning tomorrow to catch the first bus back to the metro. We ate in our house, as usual my mom and my two younger siblings are still in the living room watching tv, I told him we would have to wait outside until my mom goes up to her room to sleep. And we waited, we talked and I found out that he was a videographer before and was used to be part of now defunct rock magazine publishing company, has worked with people from music to politics, and has so much sentiments. He touched my nipples and caressed my chest with every chance he gets before we finally stepped into my bedroom, it felt good and the things we did to each other but I was not really into it that I would want more. He was not able to enter, I acted like I was really tired and not turned on. It was like four in the morning and I asked him to get dressed up so that I could walk him to the bus terminal. I was cold with him the whole time but I can't lie to myself, my disinterest did really show. So he was to catch the bus and I went back home. I texted him to make sure that he was able to get back home safely but from there, I will become like fog in his life, slowly fading away as the sun shows up in the morning. 

Young vs Old / Top vs Bottom

They say age does not matter. Well for me, its true. There are two guys who I'm constantly exchanging chat and txt messages with. One of them is "Trap". He said and he looks like he is 19 yrs. old, I am already 23. He is openly gay but I like the way he carries himself. I'm only able to see him in pictures but I already have talked to him on the phone and he does sound like someone who is 'out'. It did not matter to me though because I think he is a fun guy and he is also easy on the eye, if you know what I mean. His pictures tell me that he is sweet, cuddly, and smooth. Talking to him makes me feel like I am his boyfriend and he is my girlfriend, like I have to constantly watch over him, make him feel like he is being taken care of, and just endure exchanging sweet nothings with him. He tells me that he would like to get fucked in his mouth by me in so many different ways that tickles me a lot and I would tell him that I will and his ass too. But I suddenly got cold because I have this thinking that he might not like me from the way I see it. He looks like a very high maintenance partner and "sosyal" that I would not measure up. He still sends me txts though and I sometimes reply. I am still looking forward to meeting him and hopefully fucking him so I will keep you posted.

credits: chat roulette

The other guy is a lot older. He is 46 yrs. old, almost the same age as my dad. If I would be doing it with an older guy, I would prefer being his bottom. I grew up away from my dad because he had to work overseas to support our family so I did not have a father-figure, or someone that I can look up to. I think it was the reason why I am like this, why I would like to be cuddled and caressed because I somehow lacked them. Our exchanges are way wilder. We video chat and show everything, and when I say everything, no parts of our body does not get shown in front of the webcam. He is my more active virtual partner as of this moment because he is really into me. I am yet to meet this guy and we plan on doing it this week.


I don't think that I have to label myself, but not being top or bottom would still mean something in the gay world, and that's "versatile". When I meet people in the net I do say that I am versatile because I am truly versatile. If I like you, and you are simply top or bottom, I would be your opposite half. I am not like this because I just  want to get laid all the time, but I am adventurous and I would like to be 'satisfied'.

Earthquake in Japan: How to Donate

Two days ago, Japan was hit by an 8.9 magnitude earthquake, one of the largest ever recorded on Friday. The quake spawned a deadly tsunami that slammed into the nation's east coast, leaving a huge swath of devastation in its wake. Hundreds of people are dead and many more are still missing or injured.

Japan has often donated when other countries have experienced disasters, such as when Hurricane Katrina impacted the United States. They also have been giving donations to the Philippines such as when typhoon Ondoy came on 2009. Below are organizations that are working on relief and recovery in the region.

GLOBALGIVING: Established a fund to disburse donations to organizations providing relief and emergency services to victims of the earthquake and tsunami. Donate here.

SAVE THE CHILDREN: Mobilizing to provide immediate humanitarian relief in the shape of emergency health care and provision of non-food items and shelter. Donate here.

SALVATION ARMY: The Salvation Army has been in Japan since 1895 and is currently providing emergency assistance to those in need. Donate here.

AMERICARES: Emergency team is on full alert, mobilizing resources and dispatching an emergency response manager to the region. Donate here.

CONVOY OF HOPE: Disaster Response team established connection with in-country partners who have been impacted by the damage and are identifying the needs and areas where Convoy of Hope may be of the greatest assistance. Donate here.

INTERNATIONAL MEDICAL CORPS: Putting together relief teams, as well as supplies, and are in contact with partners in Japan and other affected countries to assess needs and coordinate our activities. Donate here.

SHELTER BOX: The first team is mobilizing to head to Japan and begin the response effort. Donate here.

Source: Yahoo News (Fri Mar 11, 11:48 am ET)

MUSCLE RIP-OFF

Found this video posted in one of my favorite blogs. The guy has a little accent but it just adds to his hotness. He has really huge biceps (19 in) and chest, even his belly looks really sexy. He stands 6ft and weighs 349 lbs. His not hairy though, I would have liked him a little hairy. There is something about hairy muscled guys that makes me want to stare at them. But what the heck! I like big guys hairy or not. He is gay, so as my gay friend puts it, "pabor sa'kin" hahaha. You can find him both in Youtube and Xtube. Great eh? So enjoy the video and listen carefully to how his shirts are being ripped-off, its really hot!

RIhanna's S & M

Rihanna does it again with her song "S & M" included in her Loud album. S & M actually means "sadism and masochism" or "sadomasochism" when you put it together. According to Wikipedia's definition, sadism is the infliction of pain or humiliation upon another person and masochism is the pleasure in receiving them. 

This is a part of the BSDM lifestyle. For those of you who are not familiar, this stands for bondage and discipline (b & d) and sadism and masochism (s & m). In this relationship, one, both, or more people find pleasure or eroticism with the performance of different activities. There is a TOP and a BOTTOM: the top inflicts pain, degradation, or subjugation while the bottom (submissive) submits voluntary to the actions of the top. I think this is where we got Top and Bottom roles in bed. The top is usually the dominant and the bottom is the submissive partner but sometime the top follows instructions from the bottom whenever the bottom expresses the desire for it.  Unlike a gay top-bottom relationship, with BDSM a top can be a bottom or vise versa and this is called "Switch".

BDSM is very visible in porn, or may I say porn (in any form of media) is the most popular and widely distributed means of showing this. You may have watched a lot of gay porn with guys (mostly muscled, haha) wearing leather, ropes, or chains. This is part of bondage. People involved in these activities may also include a variety of props to enhance the act (increase pain or pleasure). If you are interested to participate in BDSM, you should ensure consensus or a pre-play agreement especially when you are doing it with people you do not know very well so that all participants may be kept out of danger. Also make sure that all participants are sane, because doing  the activities would really require psychological strength. 

You can search for more information about BDSM in the internet. I haven't tried BDSM but it is really interesting. I remember this gay porn I saw just lately where the bigger guy (daddy) spanks and slaps the poor twink while they are doing it. The twink was cuffed on both the hands and feet. The daddy even pisses on the twink and then fucks him after. I guess sex partnes, gay, lesbian, or straight may actually do this when they get sick of just the simple fetishes, but not yet for me,

Baby You're a Firework!

In college, I decided to stay in different boarding houses until I finished. I used to do crazy things with my   gang. Like these guys from Arkansas who decided to shoot their own music video having fun with Katy Perry's "Firework". Nothing beats watching a real beefy guy shaking it. They even did the Jersey Shore Fist Pump! Enjoy!

Alex Castro

credits to melason pexers (image found in pinoy exchange)

There are better reasons now to tune in to afternoon soaps. I watched Mana Po in ABS-CBN and found out that Alex Castro is there. He was that hot looking contestant in Are You The Next Big Star in GMA Network. I have a good ear for music so I would say he isn't really good in singing but man does he have everything else! I'm just a little disappointed because I really believe that this guy can make it to the likes of John Lloyd Cruz and Dennis Trillo but watching him in that series, you'll ask yourself why does he have to take his clothes off ALL THE TIME. I know that this guy is an eye-candy but for me his body was overexposed, but no complaints! There are scenes where  he will just take his shift off from nowhere and you'll notice that his body is getting better and better. Hopefully this guy gets more projects or maybe just more "exposure". More of him after the jump.